Life I can tell you is funny. You never get what you want or who you want, and you have to make compromises and sacrifices, just to make others happy, and in order to maybe obtain one ounce of happiness. I just shake my head at the sacrifices that one has to give up. Though sometimes it is hard it is a necessity in order to keep some sort of sanity. Do I really want to give up my happiness though just to make someone else happy? Am I willing to forgive and just continue to live like as if it is ok? I would rather live with happiness and be level headed about it. All the thought and all the emotions that I am placing into whether I choose, is not hard but it is really uncomfortable.

I ask myself what do I really want to do? Do I just put it all away in the back of my mind and imagine that it never happened or I never felt a thing? Or do I go out and express it, showing how much I want to be happy and how much I am willing to sacrifice. It is so not fair how life makes you do things that you sometimes do not want to do. But maybe sometimes it is worth it in the long run. If however something else is meant to happen it will eventually, there is a time and a place for everything. I have noticed recently that I have been making decision and that I have been turning around and wondering what could I have done differently. I hate doing that though, I just want to make a decision and do not have to second doubt it.

I just hope that I am making the right decision right now. I am feeling so uncertain, yet I need to do it. If I really feel unsure I am going to have to back out of my decision and think of another way to make things work. I am so tired, I am going to bed now. Work in the morning!

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