I went to get the boys from their grandma today. Soon hopefully they will be staying down here in Tally-ho and will only visit her on the weekends. I know they are going to love it because Kareem is always asking to come home. I love them so much, since they messed with my schedule, I had a day of yesterday and I worked today and now I am off tomorrow again. So it is a little inconsistent this week.

Yesterday Akeem called Kareem a cry baby acting like he is so much the boss. Kareem is taller than him and is bigger than him but that does not matter he is still the man. I laughed so hard when he told him that. They are my pride and joy, they bring me such happiness, I love them so. I cherish every little moment with them, life goes by so quickly and is so short, I want to make sure that I see every moment with them.

God I am tired. I bought some taco ingredients to make my own taco salad tomorrow. It will be fun to do so, since I am always buying it from Taco Bell, and I know that my own is going to be better . I am so sleepy right now. I am going to lie down. Peace out!!

Life I can tell you is funny. You never get what you want or who you want, and you have to make compromises and sacrifices, just to make others happy, and in order to maybe obtain one ounce of happiness. I just shake my head at the sacrifices that one has to give up. Though sometimes it is hard it is a necessity in order to keep some sort of sanity. Do I really want to give up my happiness though just to make someone else happy? Am I willing to forgive and just continue to live like as if it is ok? I would rather live with happiness and be level headed about it. All the thought and all the emotions that I am placing into whether I choose, is not hard but it is really uncomfortable.

I ask myself what do I really want to do? Do I just put it all away in the back of my mind and imagine that it never happened or I never felt a thing? Or do I go out and express it, showing how much I want to be happy and how much I am willing to sacrifice. It is so not fair how life makes you do things that you sometimes do not want to do. But maybe sometimes it is worth it in the long run. If however something else is meant to happen it will eventually, there is a time and a place for everything. I have noticed recently that I have been making decision and that I have been turning around and wondering what could I have done differently. I hate doing that though, I just want to make a decision and do not have to second doubt it.

I just hope that I am making the right decision right now. I am feeling so uncertain, yet I need to do it. If I really feel unsure I am going to have to back out of my decision and think of another way to make things work. I am so tired, I am going to bed now. Work in the morning!

So I registered for this beta about 2 months ago when I noticed my phone did not have a flash player on it and I could never get youtube or any other flash site to work. The free software they had around the web were not working for me either, and through constant searching and reading forums, I found out about Skyfire. It is amazing I will tell you that, I can view webpages like as if I was on the desktop with no problem, and all I have to do is zoom into the sections I really want to view. The sites loads so quickly I think now I am really using the 3G network. If you own a windows mobile 6.0 or 6.1 PDA phone you could register to join the beta on the Skyfire lab website.

Well, I have a best friend he is so amazing. He understands me so well, he senses my feelings. He is sensitive to my moods and  he is like my mentor. If I have a problem, I tell him and he gives me suggestions. If I am excited about an achievement he is excited too. I am so proud of him, because he is intelligent, and he is also an expert when it comes to analyzing things. He is one of Barack Obama’s biggest fan, knowing every little thing that will happen and the result of something that already happened. He is also a Star Wars fan and sometimes only on occasions he is my Jedi. I have to declare that I love him and he holds a special place in my heart. I have three boys and they are all special to me.

Ok back to work for me. I am trying to finish up this website.

So I went a searching for some songs to put on my zune, and with what I found on my computer I could not decide. I have almost 6000 songs on the computer but I only wanted to listen to only 2530 of those songs. I think I am going to get more songs later that I might like. I am also looking at my DVD backups that may have another 2000 somewhere. I think I might need the 80 gb after all but lets wait and see what happens (kisses baby ).

So I saw this other template I might want to use, or maybe I might just make my own, but I am still learning so I am not so sure I can do it on my own for now. But I think I could do it. Really and truly its not that hard, its just the time I need and in session B I am going to be squeezing for spare time. Ah well I will make it happen.

So I was looking at Michael Phelps the amazing swimmer from the US. Boy is he talented, I was on the edge of my chair watching him make that goal. I could only imagine how his mom felt. It must have been an amazing feeling. Wow I imagine Kareem and Akeem achieving things and I get excited. First however I will get excited about the A’s.

Ok have to do some chores in a few since I work later this evening.

Drats!!! I am trying to decide whether to get an Apple Mac Ibook or buy a Dell. It is a tough decision because I want to try the Mac because I have heard such great reviews about it. Then again I am thinking money wise, I could get a Dell with more features and it would work just fine with any of the phones that I want. If I get the Mac book I will have to get the iphone, which does not really fancy. I guess I might end up going for the Dell.

In other news, I have decided on my persuasive topic. I have also decided to get a major head start on it. I already have my introduction ready and now I have to do my research. I will tell you what I am writing about in the 8th week when it is due.

Ok I have to go now. Talk to you later when I get home.